You cannot deny that something is taking place inside you. You cannot assess it, but you must honour this presence with a positive and grateful thought. Life is change, evolution and upheaval; anything can happen and one should develop an adaptive capacity. So will it be until the last day of your life.

"In this particular case, we can see that you let yourself go and you overcome self-doubt with a view to being surrendered a little further, considering it as a period of testing.

"You are a case apart which we are examining – not under a microscope, but with some curiosity. Your reactions are special: you are advancing in faith, keeping a reasonable eye on what happens to you and what surrounds you. Only your heart escapes this vigilance and can show its infinite worth."

Babuji

--Confidences