My daughter, the answer to your query is that your time of respite has not yet come. Everything in its own time. Remain focused on what you have yet to achieve in spite of your physical tests; this is part of your journey in this world.

"Accept anything good that comes your way each day, see only that and offer the remainder to the powerful forces that animate any life. This is typical of surrender, without which there is no true spiritual path.

"Each one of your steps is embellished by graces bestowed on you. May they be your strength, your reason to serve us beyond this daily writing, which is nearing its completion.

"Another space is opening up to you in which you can exercise this noble inclination to help your fellow creature in many ways.

"May your wishes on this aspect be fulfilled; it is appropriate for us to grant them.

"Be blessed."

Babuji

--Privilege of the Heart